Butterfly

Butterfly

The story of a butterfly

Conceived in the secrecy of their passion

A mere egg fertilised and birthed into the world

Crawled her way through childhood like a caterpillar should

Clothed in silk thread – alive with possibilities

Until the world boxed her in

Boys amputating her with their hungry stares

Girls with their whispers shunning her

Puberty catching up...the ugly pimples

All of a sudden she needs to define herself

Who am I?

So she crawls to her shell

As a protective mechanism she hides

In her safe cocoon

Neither speaking up nor shouting out

Just setting up a tent in the comfort of the labels

Yet using the time to find her definition of herself

Then slowly she breaks out of the shell

Rejuvenated...having found her wings

She learns to fly again

She understands that her being is a canvass of many colours

And there and then, she finds her definition

Not just one – but a thousand

How can a being created by a God so indescribable be defined in one sentence?

And as a beautiful butterfly, she soars higher and higher

Painting a rainbow in the clear blue sky

She goes to return

As an egg ready to embark on the journey again!!!

Gone!!!

We have danced, back and forth
To and fro
But mostly we have spun around in circles
Now we right back where we were

My faith in love, in happily-ever afters
My faith in you
My faith is us
But which us? – cause us never really was
But in my mind!!!

So now I’m taking a bow
This is my curtain call
My days of dancing in circles have come to an end
My heart can’t take the heat anymore
Of dancing yet never getting gold
Never being the oNe!!!
But which one? Cause there was never only one with you

The only circle I wanted was the circle of love
Of the covenant of a never-ending bond
But it was never to go there was it???
It existed, but only in my mind
I saw it... but only through my eyes

I guess it’s my fault
For choosing to see not what is but what could be
For holding on to a possibility
That was really slim if I think about it
But I also guess that I held on for as long as I had to
You know the heart
It needs time
It needs proof – blood
To be convinced that it beats in vain

The Father's heart

To have a man take me gently by the hand

To have him lead me safely across the road

To have him look into my eyes and say: I will PROTECT YOU!!!

To have him swing me around the air

To have him throw me up and catch me again

To have him smile widely and say: I will NEVER LET YOU FALL!!!

To have him sit me down on his lap

To have him carry me on his shoulders

To have him tell me: The world is your oyster, Princess!!!

To have a man hold me in his arms

To have a man kiss me on the cheek

Just to say: You are my daughter and I LOVE YOU!!!

If I knew of such a love I would write about it

But I have never had such a man...

“ I held your hand through the years

Led you safely past the stares

of hungry men

When they lured you into their traps with promises for a better life

I gave you courage to see through that

I protected your heart, when you searched for love in the wrong places

I never let it shatter

When you lived life on the edge

Getting high on danger and flirting with death

I caught you

I never let you fall

When you cried I sat you on my lap

I carried you high above your pain

I gave you the world that you desired

All I had, I gave to you

I am God, and I am King

I came to earth to adopt you as mine

I gave up my crown to give you a title

And now I call you My Princess

I held you in my arms

Through your life of rebellion

I kissed you every night

And gave you rest and peace of mind

I whispered in your ear

You are my daughter and I LOVE YOU

I am God, and No, I am not a man

But my love is all that you need

I am God and I am your Father

I Love You, I will protect You,

I will give you all that you desire

I will never ever let you fall

So come to me, because I have always been here”

God and not a man!!!

It is God and not a man that places value on you, woman

It is His word in Proverbs 31

His perception of your heart

That truly defines your worth

The eyes of a man are not of God

That they should measure you

That they should look you up and down

And scrutinize you

That they should label you and deem you

NOT the one!!!

The dreams of a man are limited

The sight of a man is tainted

By preference, subjectivity and bias

And all other things that are human nature

But the heart of God

It sees you drenched in your tears

It sees your scarred body, woman

Your yearn for affection and attention

Your insecurities

Your daddy issues

Your baby-mama drama

Your uncontrollable anger

The heart of God sees you, woman

And it Loves you

It sees you curled up in bed

Haunted by your fears

It sees your desperate need for validation

Your struggle with outer beauty

So the next time a man renders you unlovable

And not worth his standards

Remember

It is not a reflection on you

It is a reflection of his shallow nature

For God’s heart looks at the same picture

And sees a different woman

A woman that Christ had to be crucified for

A damsel in distress to be loved and not judged

A woman of mighty strength

To be healed by His warm embrace

God sees you, woman

God values you, woman

God sees not who you were, but who you are

And who you are yet to become

So seek not to be perfect for a man

But to know God

That you may find refuge in His perfect love

serenity...courage...wisdom

I cannot change how i got to this world
but i have a say in how i get out of it
I cannot change who i was before i got into this circumstance
but i have a say in who i will be when i get out of it
I cannot control who likes me and who doesn't
but i can choose to love myself beyond measure
I cannot control what opportunities I get
But I can control how prepared I am for the opportunities I am graced with
I cannot change the past
but I can change today to change tomorrow
I cannot erase the footsteps behind me
but I can change the course of the footsteps to follow
I cannot control the words and actions directed at me
But I can choose how I let them define me
I cannot change the person sitting next to me
But I can choose what I gain from my encounter with them
I cannot change the whole world
But I can influence one person positively, who can influence another, who can influence another
I cannot change my name
But I can change what it means to me
"Lord give the serenity to accept all the things that I cannot change, the courage to change those that I can... and the wisdom to know the difference"

Mother, Friend, Forever!!!

Mother

I call you mother, because you birthed me
at the tender age of 21, newly-wed - all innocent yourself
younger than I am now
Yet you pushed
against all odds to have me
see the light of day

I call you mother, because you nursed me
with hands as tiny as mine
you rocked me
you fed me - with your adolescent breast
but you kept me
hungry for LIFE

I call you mother, because you lead me
through example you showed me
how to walk, how to talk, how to be
Mother...
You gave me
the gift of words so today I can write this
the love for life so today I shine even brighter than the brightest sun
the ability to laugh so today - i smile at the thought of you

Friend

I call you friend for you listened
You stayed up at night to dry my ever-falling tears
You told me, even truths that I didn't want to hear
because you loved me
more than a mother, more than a friend

I call you friend for you shared with me
your most happiest moments
and in your sorrows you cuddled up beside me
and told me it was all worth it because you had me

Forever

I keep you in my heart - forever
for you left messages for me all over
in notebooks
behind photographs
some whispered in my ears while i was sleeping as a child
as if you knew that I would need them
and you wouldn't be there to give them

I keep you in my heart - forever
for you left me a replica of you - my sister
and now like you were to me
I hope to be - to her
like a mother, like a friend, like forever

I keep you in my heart - forever
for you left me - a family
mothers, friends that i will have forever

I keep you in my heart - forever
and forever I will carry these words that you gave to me

"Likeleli, ngoanak'a, tlou ha e hloloe ke moroalo"
You were right, mother, friend, forever!!!

Poem by Maya Angelou

A friend of mine: Olerato Modubu posted this beautiful in our facebook group, God's Girls... and i just wanted to share it with you all!!! I think it is an amazing illustration of the love of God, it explains in very simple terms what it really means to be Christian!!!
I hope you do enjoy

"When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow.."